It is the last day of 2017 and here I am thinking back on the year’s events in my life. With the trials in life, my faith is what had kept me going. The main trial this year was the worsening of my health. I suffer from chronic pains and multiple health issues. Life as I knew it had changed drastically from what it was a few years ago. I take more medications now than when I started this year. I have had to see specialists which include a cardiologist and rheumatologist. In the next few weeks, I am going to also see a nephrologist. I have had many tests done this year. I have gained weight due to mainly medications I take. My hair is dropping every single day- sometimes in chunks. My body is sort of attacking itself. There is pain in multiple areas of my body. Some days, I have it only in a few areas. Other times, it is just one area or the entire body. A lot of days are difficult for me to even get out of bed in the mornings due to pain. Sometimes, I have had to miss church- like today for example. In the midst of the storms, I am still praising God.
Do you know what is the best part of all this? I am still blessed. The Lord has shown me multiple times of His Mercy and Love. I have been able to write my latest book, “Letting Go-and Letting God- a Devotional on Forgiveness”. It took longer than I thought it would but I was able to finish it. What a learning experience that was! Here again, the Lord had stepped in. He brought me a new friend in Christ. Jeannie has been there for me from the time I joined an online Christian ladies group. Our chats at all hours of the day and night have been so encouraging and needed. Her prayers for me when I was having to face one of my greatest trial in encountering my ex for the first time in over fifteen years, have been a blessing to me.
I have been blessed with a kind and loving husband who is always there for me- no matter what. Apart from the Lord, he’s been my rock. He listened to my cries of pain, hugged me and tried his best to help me in every single way he knew how. He’s the love of my life. The love, support and prayers from my church family was also another blessing. They have all been kind and tried to help us in whatever way they could. I could go on and on but suffice to say that the Lord is always on time. His ways are not my ways. He knows what we need and when we need it. That is something to always keep remembering- no matter how tough life gets.
Who knows what 2018 will bring? No one. I do know that my Lord and Savior is going to be with me at all times. I know He is not going to leave me nor forsake me. 2017 was for me a year of faith. I know that Lord willing, 2018 is not going to be different there. I would still keep the faith. I would still trust in Him because He knows what is best for me. Thank you, Jesus for what You have done, are doing and will do for me. I love you, Lord!